“Augh.” It’s what Charlie Brown yells when that bitch Lucy pulls away the football. It’s also the only thing I can think of that sums up my thoughts right now.

I’ll start with yesterday. Yesterday wasn’t a stellar day for me. As I said in my last post, I’m expecting a package from Arc containing BioShock, Grand Theft Auto IV, and Castlevania: Dawn of Sorrow. Well, yesterday was Sunday, so no mail. Add to this that all day I had a light headache which got progressively worse throughout the day, and a toothache to boot.

So, like I said… Not a stellar day.

Now, today. Monday. Mail runs again, but does my package come? Nope. This makes a week since he mailed it and it’s still not here. However, I mailed him a package a day later than he mailed his. His arrived on Saturday. A big “wtf” to the United States Postal Service is in order.

Anyway, big deal. I’m a pretty patient guy — one more day ain’t gonna hurt. But this story doesn’t stop there.

My dad works third shift. He leaves the house at 6 PM. He leaves today, just like always, only to return at 6:15. With a busted headlight. And a dented hood. And a misplaced radiator.

He hit a damn deer.

This is NOT good. The car isn’t beyond repair, but it’ll take money. Money we don’t have. We’re already practically going paycheck-to-paycheck. HIS paychecks, since I can’t find a job to save my life and my mom doesn’t have one either. With this, our “working vehicle” count decreases to one. One vehicle for a family of three. Oh, but the fun doesn’t stop there! Our one working vehicle? Power steering leak. Need like $200 to fix it. You can still drive it, but you have to pour power steering fluid in it before you do.

Oh, and remember what I said. Paycheck-to-paycheck. Fixing either of these vehicles is no small task. Perhaps worst of all is how bad I feel for being so powerless (read: jobless) in this whole scenario. I mean, I know it’s not my fault. Lord knows I’ve been looking MONTHS for a job, but the economy hasn’t seen fit to cooperate.

I’m sure we’ll figure something out, or someone will step in to help us… I mean, we’ve been through far worse than this. I won’t go into details on that, but believe me… We’ve been in far worse conditions than this, and we’ve come through alright.

But for now… Augh. Just… Augh.

UPDATE: …And I thought my past two days were bad. My cousin (the same one I refer to all the time — the one I usually borrow games from) was in a wreck on his way to school this morning. While he and his little brother aren’t hurt too badly, the other driver is dead… I don’t have any more details other than that, except for the fact that my cousin wasn’t the one at fault. Still, this is tragic, and I can’t imagine how shaken he must feel right now seeing another person die right in front of him. My thoughts and prayers go out to his family, as well as the other driver’s.